My blog is changing! A reincarnation.

Ah, it's been two years since I posted on here. Actually can't believe it's been that long. Most of you will know that I had another baby in that time; he's now 3 months old and has caused me to have an EPIPHANY! I feel like I've been heading this way since eldest was born, but I'm at the stage now where I'm screaming "something has GOT to change".

I'm all about the eco, vegan, yogini, breastfeeding, cloth nappy lifestyle, but it is not enough!

Currently I'm suffering with PTSD, anxiety and mild depression. I've just added migraines to that list today (although they're sending me for a CT scan just to double check that diagnosis). I might be being a bit hippy and naive here but I feel like, for me, (apart from the PTSD) they're all stress related, first-world problems. I want to attack this holistically, although am considering the drugs as a temporary bandaid.

I need to cut back on stuff, things and doings. Ideally we'd go live in a eco-lodge somewhere and be self-sufficient, zero-waste, slow living... (ahem, new fave youtube channel - http://lulastic.co.uk/) and although some things may be aligning where something like this could be possible in the future. Right now, it isn't.

My blog is changing! It's going to be a place where I record what steps I am taking towards this new life I want to create for myself. Honestly I feel like a born-again Christian or something. I feel motivated and like I have found my path (calling! Bahaha) I'm going to be one of 'those vegans' right now, and bear with, but it is the same as I felt when we went vegan. It was just the absolute right thing for me, and this is the same.

The main things that I've changed recently are getting back into daily yoga, and the biggie... stepping away from my phone, particularly social media. I get dragged into it, consumed by it, and waste huge amounts of time on it. I get jealous and angry and insecure, none of which are particularly peaceful feelings. Plus, it means I'm not present for my boys, which is a massive reason that I feel things need to change.

I'm getting cravings to pack everything in and go travelling in a van. I've even looked at a few on Gumtree, but I don't know how I'd cope with the kids, without my support network. Also, we'd struggle to be zero waste, and it's not exactly carbon friendly. But what an amazing upbringing that would be for my boys.  Worldschooling. Is it the way forward for us?